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good morning only thing is it's not
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morning it's like 1:00 in the afternoon
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yeah I woke up late today it's been a
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weird rough day
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I even like messed up making my eggs for
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breakfast and so what happened well last
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night I stayed up very late making art I
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was up till like 6:00 in the morning
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just not really making art for project
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you're working on things that I should I
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just stayed up and played with Photoshop
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and I didn't even save the files I just
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drew and doodle till like 6:00 in the
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morning I looked at some Flickr photos
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and like that
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I think it's important to say you know
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like I'm an artist and I just make art
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just because it's fun and I do
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irresponsible things even that I
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shouldn't and paying for it today oh
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like worst headache so I think something
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I want to talk about briefly is going
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and you know the fact that I look at
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like the source of information that I
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draw inspiration from and look at has
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changed a lot over the years so it used
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to be you know especially when I was
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going to school and like trying to get
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all my majors and really dig deep in a
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sculpture I was looking at you know the
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artist that you're told that you're
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supposed to look at and you're like you
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know I was looking I like Marcel Duchamp
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than the traditional sculptors and you
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know donnas and experimentalists and
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constructivists and you know the
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Situationists and all these art
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collectives and all these experimental
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movements and now I don't look at them
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I mean I do but I've you know I've read
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a lot of books I read all the books on
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my saw the shop but I still return to
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them but I spent a lot of more time
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looking at non-canon art forms and a lot
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of contemporary art like I watch a lot
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of YouTube now I'm super interested and
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I look at Flickr and I think that it's
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definitely you know huge become a part
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of my practice and you know obviously I
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mean I'm starting a YouTube channel I'm
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starting a podcast but I think that you
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know I'm really interested in these
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contemporary art forms and you know you
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don't really get to decide was great and
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we're like I think what's gonna be the
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thing of the future you know like I love
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getting to see you know like thousands
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and thousands of photographers work and
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most of its mediocre most of its crap
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but occasionally you have like they do
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one photo shoot that's really great or
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like you know you can see holdback
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catalogs of their whole contact sheets
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and I don't know for me that's it's
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great and then I just you know I can
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like spend all night doodling on my
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computer and then you know I have to
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save it so I have to worry about like
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all this paper lying around it's great
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so packing for LA well so I'm going to
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LA game like like Thursday morning and I
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need to pack because I mean I need to
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but something to know about me is I'm
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notoriously a terrible terrible Packer
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there was one time in 2015 when I spent
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a month in Baltimore and I literally
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lived for the entire month and I only
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packed five blue Hawaiian shirts so I
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just wore blue Hawaiian shirts every
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single day
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and I'm hoping that I you know I always
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every time I go somewhere I like mess up
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which is ridiculous because I don't want
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any things I just take everything I own
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and put it all in one bag it all fits
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there but I still somehow screw it up so
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what am i so when you pack as an artist
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you know I find that I said like 90% art
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supplies 3% clothes I'm like like
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hygiene and so I have in LA I'm kind of
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doing quite a few things you know I have
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the book fair I'm meeting with authors
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meeting with other people you know maybe
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meeting with some bookstores and then I
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have a bunch of photo shoots for the
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rest of the week like booked solid like
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I'm having like like I'm getting picked
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up from the bookstore like from the book
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fair not even going to the after-party
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to be driven out of LA to do a shoot and
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I'll be doing a shoot with Letty from
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Letty does stuff and I believe her name
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is Susie from the strawberry butcher
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they're both like really famous
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Instagram and patreon on YouTube models
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I think Letty has one of the highest
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like like one of the most successful
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adult creators on patreon which is
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amazing I'm gonna be doing work with
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Rachael May who's flying out there with
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me and so we're gonna be you know doing
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collaborative shoots with all of them
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and I have to pack all my photo stuff
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all my book stuff which I've been
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mailing out books like constantly it's
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frustrating I ordered a you know a bunch
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of books for the fair that was in Miami
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this weekend
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they still haven't arrived they were
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supposed to be here a week ago and they
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still aren't here whatever does get here
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when I'm not here and I'm just sit
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outside in the rain whatever so one
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thing that I'm doing this year as part
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of my personal practice
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wasn't really something that I like made
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a conscious decision to do until it kind
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of felt like it was already one but I'm
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pretty much only shooting film now I
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have a digital camera but I've almost
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entirely shooting film so I'm not even
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this isn't my first ever trip where I'm
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just not gonna bring a digital camera
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and I have like some really big photo
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shoots lined up you know where like you
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know thousands of dollars are on the
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line and I'm just gonna only shoot films
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and I'm pretty nervous about it for a
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couple reasons I'm nervous that I'm
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gonna run in film I'm nervous that the
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the lab is gonna mess it up as it is
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right now I have a lab in a way that I
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trust I've never gone to one I actually
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still mail all my film to Pennsylvania
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and the reality is nobody like really
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does film scans it or does it as good as
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I do and I know that's like such a dumb
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thing to say but you know like I I don't
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know I'm a professionally trained
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colorist $200,000 degree in it you know
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like I went and for me i surd how with
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film and like I had already been
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shooting large format and scanning it on
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a Hasselblad drum scanner before I ever
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shot a digital camera so like four years
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and so like it actually feels and makes
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it like darkroom printing I've been
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doing like longer than I've been doing
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digital like taking digital photos at
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all which i think is really rare for
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someone in my generation and I also
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think you know and I'm just you know
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really geeky a really techie and I can
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like I love to like scan a photo and
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look at like those scan density and see
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all the little details and and fix color
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correct and if you haven't watched my
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color cartooning tutorial and how to do
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that with cheap scans definitely do that
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it will help you a lot so I'm bringing
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my cameras I have a couple ones I'm
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gonna bring camera bags unfortunately
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never you fly with cameras
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I'm a giant pain in the butt because you
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have to like put you have to be able to
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take all your cameras out and normally I
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only take one camera I usually only take
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my digital camera but I just this year
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bought a second film camera as a backup
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and I'm a little worried because it's
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it's plastic so I like super rough to
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every all my equipment and I just you
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know I buy like all metal and then I
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just like slam everything into oblivion
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and take it all around the world and
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don't buy plastic because it'll break
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it'll break so I just recently got an
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amazing deal a couple months ago I can
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do is three so everything that I have I
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have my old-fashioned Canon EOS 620
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which is like the first ever film camera
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I have es3 which is like that I control
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one and it comes with a zoom lens which
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I've never ever worked with a zoom lens
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except for like when I worked for a
10:05
company shooting portraits and I've
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never worked with autofocus aside from
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like a little point shoot so it's like
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crazy to me to have these technologies
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but also very frustrating because I've
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been trying them out and I'm definitely
10:19
faster like you know if you shoot a
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hundred thousand photos with the lens
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you're faster than autofocus at least I
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am I don't know like sound whatever I'm
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fooling myself but I'm definitely faster
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and definitely more accurate and it's
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something that it's like really
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frustrating with me because you have
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these zoom lenses and I just like the
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autofocus lenses and like you try and
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focus them by hand and I just don't look
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right I look good so I have a zoom lens
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there I have my normal 15 millimeter
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which I finally got a lens cap off it's
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not a canon lens but I have no
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how the lens cap with this for like five
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years and if you could imagine leave a
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dust and crap you know going to the
11:10
desert hiking in the mountains I mean I
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think I've hiked like backpacking maybe
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I mean at least twenty thousand thirty
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thousand miles with this camera and I
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don't have like a camera back i I own
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when I never ever use it I just throw it
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in my backpack which you know literally
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has no padding at all or if it's a small
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trip I'll take this little bag again no
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padding but I got these like traditional
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bags and I'm gonna like try and put them
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in here and then put them in my backpack
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I don't know
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mostly bring your 35 millimeter lens so
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I bring like three lenses I feel like
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that's fine um I have other lenses but
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you know I just bring a great card so
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most people who shoot and shoot film
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don't really care about color or about
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lighting you know these are pretty big
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clients and so I'm gonna bring a great
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card and what it will allow me to do is
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get accurate color and good metering you
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know like a lot of times when I shoot in
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digital I'm shooting an aperture
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priority but here I'm probably gonna be
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shooting in manual I'm gonna exposed for
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the model you know put this in front of
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models face get the light like a real
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light meter reading and make sure that
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the models look great
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we're doing some really weird really
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experimental stuff and we're really
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gonna like be pushing film latitude of
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what film can do and so if I want to
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make sure that I'm not messing up
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technically my brain I have this thing
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which is like the critic organizer I've
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been using it for about a year now I
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love it it's great
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bring the back here
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keep color filters and I bring some
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color filters I still put over top of
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the flash I'm probably gonna have to
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bind you better don't you have to buy
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batteries every time that you don't look
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those batteries gay I don't think I
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don't get to buy batteries every time
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you can fly I think that you're not
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allowed to carry batteries especially in
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a carry-on you know I'm not gonna check
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this my - my god some lens wipes
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I got film here I had a couple rolls up
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to Porter 160 this was a birthday
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present with another if another box of
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Porter 160 I just got in the mail here
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yesterday and now I'm thinking that I
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don't have enough film crap so I'm
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probably gonna have to order more film
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to my air B&B; or whatever in LA because
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you know the worst thing that you do is
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you shoot all film and I have like a lot
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of shoots lined up and I'm just not
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gonna have enough film I have lots of it
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like expired film sitting here but it's
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all a six slide film and I can't believe
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I love slide film I actually preferred
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it on it and every way but since I won't
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be processing it myself I won't be
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taking I won't be using it because I
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have to like process it myself and scan
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it myself it is not worth it it's like
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the amount I'm gonna shoot he would take
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so much time and I think there's
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something to talk about you know as a
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professional artist you know like I
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started out shooting very slow
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large format and then I moved to
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shooting you know getting a couple
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hundred photos that I need ready for a
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production like ready out there in the
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world every single month you know like
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and so you know if you shoot to need if
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you go from you know couple look at your
15:52
own pace to maybe like you need five
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thousand photos this year that are like
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portfolio already then you'd need to
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outsource things and it doesn't make you
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a bad artist to think about those things
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and to do them other than that I'm gonna
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bring some petty cash for the Book Fair
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I'm gonna bring this stand here I'm in
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court I've been recording on my phone
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and this microphone which I got actually
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at the podcasting event last month and
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hopefully I have a book coming in
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suppose you got a bunch of packages
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mails just I don't what it is but mail
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just never arrives it's like a thing
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where it's like every time that I need
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mail which is not here so I supposed to
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get yesterday a brand new book that I
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ordered Michael hi its new book about
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focusing maybe it'll help me and and
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yeah you know I'd like to read that on
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the plane or or something I always try
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and make art every time that I'm travel
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and I had this thing where I can't sleep
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on the plane it's like thing I've gone
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17 hour fights I'm ever one sick kid
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going home from Jordan was like 45 hours
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I can't sleep so last time when I was
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flying home from LA I actually made a
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book cheese balls on his cheek and I was
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through all the photos that I took in LA
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it was about she's about the feeling of
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feeling cool in LA because like you know
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Rachel and I were really dorks like her
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totally like cheese balls but we felt
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cool in LA and so I think there's this
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infectious energy very
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with being in LA where you know like you
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getting a cup of coffee at Starbucks and
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you just feel cool because you're
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getting a coffee in LA and so I think
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you know that was really what I wanted
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to capture and it was just something fun
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that I did for myself and it hasn't sold
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well but I don't care I didn't make it
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from that I only printed I try to I did
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it to try out a new printer which I've
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never done before and I decided not to
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go with them so I only have like 15
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copies 10 copies and then that's it like
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you guys you know if you want to order
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it it's definitely a collector's item
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because you know I don't bring it to
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every fair I don't show it everywhere
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and I don't imagine that I'll be buying
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more when like maybe I'll order more in
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a couple of years or something but like
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when I run out I'm definitely not gonna
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you know stock up and make sure I have
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it because it's not a high seller
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something that I made for myself to kill
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my board I'm on the plane and I think
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that that's something that you could
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talk about you know as an artist is you
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know like you have projects that you
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make with viewers in mind and then punch
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it that you make with yourself in mind
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and I think that you can overanalyze
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yourself constantly saying like this is
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the art that I want to put out in the
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world this is the aunt that I don't want
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to put out in the world and there's
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definitely like a point of that where
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you know you don't want to put out
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everything but you should definitely put
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out like lots of stuffs like I'm not the
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best YouTube vlogger
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but I'm gonna put this out there so
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nothing to consider I think that's it I
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think that's
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oh yeah oh wait no I have to pack
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clothes dad that's the thing too I have
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to pack clothes and so gotta pack
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clothes I got attacked books because I
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have 30 books and I ordered like 30
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different books and I ordered some books
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there that I was like I'm gonna take
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some books from here and put through my
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carry on because they're really
19:48
expensive to order new ones but then I
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haven't gotten all that shipment in and
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I sold out of some of the books the
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other ones I'm maybe at one pack today
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time
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I don't know anyway thanks for listening
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to me ramble if you have any questions
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let me know I'm excited to share my trip
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to play with you guys I have a lot of
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awesome things planned I might not do a
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lot of vlogging because I just have like
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every minute scheduled already going
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into it and you know I think that that's
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when you work with other artists that's
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when it becomes tricky you know that
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that's when you're when you have a
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schedule is whenever you collaborating
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whenever you have responsibilities to
20:28
other people so if you just want to make
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art just never set those deadlines but
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if you want to like be doing stuff all
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the time
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then you collaborate anyway be sure to
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LIKE comment subscribe let me know any
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your thoughts on this let me know if
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you're in LA you want to meet me at the
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fair have a great day